We may be eating disordered but we are not stupid.
If we could see how tiny we are we would not post pictures/posts saying we look huge. We don’t see how tiny we are, we see the monster that is feeding our disordered thoughts, and that monster is so huge, you cannot begin to imagine.
I wonder what it feels like to be skinny, and thin, and wake up in the morning in nothing but a t-shirt, undies, messy hair, that ‘just woke up look’ and still have someone think I’m hot, to have guys look at me, to have guys want to be my boyfriend, to have girls be jealous of my body, to feel my hipbones and collarbones, to feel confident in a bikini, to sit down and not feel fat everywhere, to not rub out the thighs in my jeans, to need a smaller size in the store, I wonder what its like to look in the mirror and like what I see, and not want to break the mirror. Pretty much, I just want to be beautiful. I could go on forever..
sadly, this post is practically all of my feelings for the past 15 years -Ashlinne xxWelp this.
